Courtlynn has also been trying to wrap her head around the events of Declan's passing. She often wants to be covered up with a blanket and then held like a baby, then she'll say "I'm Declan. I didn't die." and she will fake cry. She also likes to give me her little baby dolls and say, "Heres Declan mom" or her other famous line is "It's ok mom, we will see Declan tomorrow." She melts my heart. Last night she was on her 'phone' and I could hear her talking loudly so I went to listen to what she was saying. The conversation went something like this, 'You give him back. You bring our baby back. You can't take our baby, he's ours!' Then she hung her head and walked up to me and said, 'they not give Declan back'. Then we sat on the floor in the kitchen, cried together and talked about Declan and how much we both miss him. Then she whispered really softly, "Declan in Heaven with Jesus." Another God Hug!
The healing process has been tough, but the kids have been so resilient and strong. Not a day goes by that I am not amazed at how well they are holding up!
|I'm so thankful for the two of them... they bring me so much joy and happiness!|