Your first Father's day since losing Declan... a day that should be filled with silly gifts the kids made you, care free thoughts, grilled hot dogs and good quality play time... instead, this day no longer is care free, no longer holds the same meaning it once did. Yes, you are still a father, but it's different. Like Mother's day for me, it feels like a cruel trick to remind you of what we have loss. Just when you think your heart can take no more pain, you must sit through a whole day of remembering that one of your children is no longer with you, to feel like your your not a 'whole' dad anymore, even though it's not true,... I think over the past four months you have proved over and over again that you are more than a 'whole' dad. You have supported myself, the kids and your family through something so inconceivably difficult. You have remained strong when it would have been easier to give up. You have showed an enormous amount of love and compassion to those around you. You have proved how amazing you are as a father and a husband! Noah, Courty and I are better people because of you. And our sweet little Declan... you know he is spending the day, right now, signing your praises and remembering all the times you held him, kissed him and showered him with love... not one day of his life went by that he did not feel the power of our love for him! Even though he is not here, he loves you so very much, and so do we! Happy Father's day babe!